Day 258

I watched Christmas movies on hallmark channel. I did get out for a walk and went to church. It was all saints’ day and I talked about Kim who was not a saint but was my hero for the brave way he lived his simple complicated life. I had tears and again later. Today I’ll get out early to walk. It is now dark by 5 PM so getting out means doing the morning routine fast enough to enjoy morning light. 

Day 257

It was a quiet day and I expect today will be. Church is on the agenda along with the regular items. Life is routine and that is fine with me. Motivation is still high on the priority list. I want my body to serve as long as possible and I’m in charge of the program to do that. Must admit my nutrition yesterday was not good. I leaned toward carbohydrates and little else. Anxiety over the political scene could be contributing.

POH

I graduated from HSC in 1964 after 12 years of regular classes, summer sessions, extension classes, and correspondence courses. My husband bought me a motorcycle to celebrate. It was a trail bike with knobby tires. He had a big bike. I had to have motorcycle boots because in those days it had a kick starter and the thing would come back and sock me in the ankle. A few bruises and I was ready to wear the boots. The first time I dropped it was in gravel. He ran over to check on the bike. Didn’t notice the blood on my elbow and cheek. I would take Hollie on the front with me and he would take both boys, one in front and one in back. We had fun trips around the back roads and trails close to our home. In the divorce, he took the motorcycle and gave it to his sister. The first time she rode it, it threw her on the ground and broke her arm. I had a hard time feeling bad about it.

Day 256

Yesterday was productive. Filled the agenda. While I was under the lemon tree, a cat came over the fence. Della and the cat made friends. It was sweet. It was the most animated that I have seen Della since she became blind. Today I will get out early to beat the rain for a good long walk. Megan and I made a run to Daily Bread with her purged stuff including a dresser. She is learning to downsize and enjoy space.

Day 255

Early shopping and errands today and then settle in to the yard work. I may get under the lemon tree and remove the lowest branches so it can get dry. Too many sluggy things live under there. I’ll do more trimming of the shrubs too. These warm days need to be used well before we are cold and dark. Maybe physical work will help with the restlessness that I can’t seem to focus. Exercising and walking are always on the agenda.

Day 254

No, nothing new occurred. Guess I have to go find something as it’s increasingly obvious that sitting here isn’t going to change anything. I took a couple of long walks, did a tiny bit of housework, emptied the dishwasher and that’s about all. What’s going on when my physical energy is up and I don’t know what to do with it. Kelle had a bad day and called to debrief and cry. I’m glad to be here to hear and empathize. 

Day 253

A day with only routine agenda. Maybe Rosie and I will study or make a plan for later. The Dems need phone call people to get the voters out. May do that for an hour or two. May clean house or clean the yard or not. Maybe find something new and stimulating, something fun. I’m ready for a new activity or new people. And I like my routine days. That may be enough for today while staying aware of possible opportunities.

Day 252

November 1^st, a week until the election happens. I’m sickened by the deluge of ugliness. It’s the first time I’ve been glad that Gene is not alive. He would be desperately unhappy at what’s happening in his beloved country. I grieve with his spirit. Misty morning so exercise first, then walk, then the deep massage that Sarah gives my body. I want more from my days, proof that I’m feeling well. If I’m wimpy, I don’t care about getting anything done.